* This post is written by one of our volunteer content creators.*
Hi guys! Following on from my last check-in, firstly I just want to say a big thank you to every one of you for taking the time to read my blogs and begin to follow me on this adventure that is my journey. And as always, take love and light from me. Also, a great big thank you to Access Your Life for allowing me to be a volunteer content creator and giving me this platform to share my experiences and to give food for thought to others within the community who face the same issues that I do, hopefully helping people to become who they truly are through the content I am humbly enabled to share.
The content that I am going to focus on today surrounds being honest and transparent with medical staff. Before both my initial GP appointment and my appointment with the gender clinic, I had asked myself why I was undertaking a new chapter. My journey from female to male was about allowing myself to break free from my cocoon and becoming externally the person I was on the inside.
The one thing that keeps coming back to me time after time is to keep true to myself, be strong and take NO shortcuts regardless of how easy it may be to do. People say honesty is the easiest thing in the world to be, but it’s not. Not at all. It’s hard at times and some consequences of your actions can have a devastating impact on your life as you know it. It's BRAVE to be honest and it takes guts! I had no idea what that meant for me, or for the journey that I was to embark on, but one thing is for sure - I’d rather blow myself out of the water and trust in the process than act upon outside influence. Because if I had taken that route, it would have had a massively detrimental effect on my journey and treatment.
Looking back on that time I was experiencing what every trans person goes through at the beginning of their adventure - huge waiting times for the initial 1 to 1 appointment at the Gender Clinic. With this knowledge, I decided to self-medicate with vials of testosterone. Red flag right there, however, you would need to be in my shoes to completely understand my decision. Thankfully the community that reached back to me told me that if I was self-medicating, my chances of being prescribed testosterone in the future would be zero. A sobering thought that halted me in my tracks. I owed it to myself to do this properly. After all, I am trying to change my life and I needed the appropriate professionals to aid me in doing so. Faced with this realisation, I went back to basic thinking and being as true to myself as possible. And knew I couldn’t begin this journey on lies, especially to the professionals that I would eventually be under the care of.
Also, outside advice was to fabricate feelings that weren’t particularly, in order there to enable me to receive treatment from the gender clinic. So what did McDonald do, you may ask? In true soldier style, I stood up, went into that room, and spoke to the doctor with the respect that he afforded me. Laid bare what my intention was regarding my transition from female to male, presenting them ME and that’s all I needed to do. Long story short, if I had listened to and acted upon other people’s negative experiences, my treatment would never have been without a massively long wait until I could even be considered for any hormonal treatment whatsoever!
Just remember every day is a school day and there’s always something to learn. It’s the same for my GP surgery, we work together - they learn to respect and support me in my transition, whilst I’m helping them to create awareness and understanding. Allowing them to give me and future trans patients the appropriate care and attention that EVERY human has the right to, don’t you think?
Love and acceptance are wonderful things when everyone is singing from the same hymn sheet.
Love & Light - Adam x
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